Another Big Suprise. Disappointment. Sadness. Self doubt.

If you could only hear the voices inside screaming, "It won't happen because he doesn't think you're attrative anymore." "You're just a bore and a bother." "Just a nusence."

"He might love you still but you will always know he thinks you're ugly."


That's what made me cry.

Why now does the doubt come back? What did I do to make myself this way?

I just want o be happy again. I'm scared again. I don't want to push my emotions off on you.
That is how I think you feel. I know they are not true but I can't help but worry and constantly think this way.